Sunday, October 22, 2006

Gonefucked.stuckina Rut.

auralorgasm:: Frank Klepacki - Red Alert 2 - Hell March 2

note: This reworked version of Hell March has so much more bite than the original.

Weekend after weekend it's the same old same old. There really isn't anything that interests me anymore. Now I really understand why Kelvin Tong says that the Army emasculates us Singaporean males emotionally.

It bleeds me dry, it really does. Not to say that I've not accepted it of course, in fact, my easy acceptance of this half-fucked reality is what that scares me.

I used to think that 2 years in the army is a short time, then I realised that it only seems short once it's over. It's hella-long while you're in it.

I crave something more than what's on the plate. Something new, something refreshing. Can't blame me for getting into fights if this is how it's gonna be like. So damn secondary school.

I guess it's no one's fault that everything has become so stale, stagnant and so bloody repetitive. Maybe it's just me. I dunno. I sort of know the way to get myself out of this funk but I can't possibly allow that to happen. I still don't trust myself enough after all these years.

Yeah, another long whiny post. Shoot me. I deserve it.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Blame it on Testosterone

Sometimes I'm such an asshole that I can't even stand myself, let alone have others tolerate me. Which is why I recommend that people like me get shot dead asap. We don't deserve to live on this beautiful planet.

The reason I say this is because I got into a fight just now in camp of my own instigation. Why? Because I was bored. Wtf. Dumbfuck me.

But then again, fuck it. I don't care. :D

Sunday, October 15, 2006

21st Chapter

I was wrong, it turned out better than expected.

Waterfall + Graveyard + misc. drinks = Sloshed, wasted, sehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Thanks for the drinks guys.

Happy 21st me.

Saturday, October 14, 2006


Godhead - Fall Down

I came home to find peace and quiet, to indulge in some self-deception of security and I get people pissing the fuck outta me the moment I come online.

It just hasn't been a good day, and it's not likely to get very much better in the near future. I feel retarded and depressed.

I guess it's normal then.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

I thought I'd outgrown this but apparently, you're never too old to feel alone.

Fucking haze.

The haze is pissing me off. Big time.

New episode of southpark has started.

Pulch just reinforces my opinion that David Firth is a genius. Those that think otherwise, can go help solve the ageing population problem.

I want to go Johor and eat dinner at San Low seafood, which is probably the only place in Johor, no wait, Malaysia, worth patronising.

I have absolutely fuckall to do tonight. So much for bookout day.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Wah lao eh.

No jump ah. Sian. Because of the haze, the pilot refused to fly so sigh, no jump. Next jump is on the 19th, when if all goes well, we'll do two jumps but only if there's enough slots.

But frankly, I'm quite relieved that the week is finally over. Being adrenaline-pumped whenever I thought of jump day gets tiring really fast. Not to mention that I get to spend my weekend uninjured hahaha.

Okay I'm tired, so I shall go to bed. Good night world!

Heh I sound so optimistic and happy. It's been a long time.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Leap of Faith

I'm jumping this friday and there's only two words that can describe my mood right now.

Scared shitless.

It's really interesting how we humans can try to cheat death by putting so much faith in a combination of nylon and steel. Whatever the fuck were we thinking when we invented the chute?

I hate humans.


Prevention at its best :)

Yeah there's really nothing else to say other than my computer is going to crash soon and there's nothing I can do about it. There goes the rest of my pictures, and all of my music :(