Uhm phooey.

Oh yes, the 3rd strike. The final disaster and the ultimate calamity.

My God, I'm stupid.

On the bright side, I've got some ISO 3200 b/w film in my drawer, and 2 expired fuji velvias in my fridge. This should be interesting to shoot. If I can actually get the time that is. Haha.

Fuck I wanna turn back time.

Self.

I dunno who's right, who's wrong. I dunno whether I even have the right to feel disappointed.

But I'm not feeling too good right now. Did I betray my professional ideals? I probably shouldn't have said so much.

I think mostly, I'm disappointed in me.

2nd mistake. 3rd strike and we're all out of tries.

Don't remind me.

auralorgasm:: Club 8 - Teenage Life

"...teenage love, crushing every heart, the young can go far but then they'll take it all..."

Well okay so I lied. About not returning that is. The sad truth is just that I miss writing in my own space. Previous visitors might notice a certain post missing. I had to, in order to move on. I don't want to be reminded. Never again. I really hope and pray, please Lord, never again.

A chapter of my life is finally coming to a draw. My conscription is going to end in 3 weeks. I'll then step out into the working world immediately, raw and exposed. Just like an open wound ready to be salted. Yummy.

Fresh fucking meat aye?

auralorgasm:: Catherine Wheel - God Inside My Head

I have been unstable, I have been foolish, I have been needy, I have never been as wrong as I had been. Worse still, I've never been as repentant but yet I still do not feel relief.

I'm cunfuzed. Like never before. Feelings spill over and I'm afraid that I'll slip up and ruin something great.

So... a 23 year old me isn't so much different from when I was still just 17. Same uncertainties, simply just put across to me in a very different way.

Just fucking wonderful.