Euphoria

auralorgasm:: Dido - Take my hand

I woke up this morning feeling extremely stoned and numb, having slept only an hour before. Managed to get myself to school and light a cigarette before being struck by a most wonderful feeling that everything's going to be alright.

I have no idea how to put it into words but uhm ahhh.

Okay. Like you know how I used to say there's nothing better than to listen to Smashing Pumpkins on a cold and windy morning right? Yeah I've found something much better - to listen to Dido when it's a cold, windy, and rainy morning. For the first time in a long while, I really felt damn good, damn stoned out and just damn buddhalike.

I was floating in my own mind, the nicotine kicking in my sleep-deprived brain so hard that my lips went numb. My body didn't feel like my own and strange as it may seem, Dido's voice was my soul.

It was such a blissful state to be in, that I thought I touched God for a moment. Seeing the rain spill over the shelter I was under just made the moment seem more intense, but yet so much more surreal.

I don't know what triggered it but damn it felt good.

Lasted for only few minutes though, till I found out that the fucking computer lab was closed and there was no way I could print my due assignment.

C'est la vie.

School's officially over but my project's still in edit. Sigh. Managed to psyche myself into the mood to concentrate on specialist though. Should be a good thing.

I guess hope is the only thing that keeps me going, no matter what happens. There have been some really scary periods in my life where I saw no hope in whatever I did, in however I lived. That was some fucked up shit. Had no choice but to autopilot myself out. Didn't get out unbruised, but at least I survived.

I think I'll remember what happened this morning for a long time to come. The closest I ever came to this was quite a few years back.

But I touched God this morning.

Metaphorically of course.

But still it felt brill.