I feel tired tonight.

I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't feel like doing anything, and I don't give a shit about how anybody feels.

My left earlobe is swollen. I feel two extremely painful lumps when I press down on the lobe. Fuck.

Once the gun goes off, there's no way I can stop the bullets from hitting the target. But then again, there's a reason for why the gun went off in the first place.

There is no hope for me. I am beyond redemption. I seem to lose myself everytime I manage to find myself.

This vicious cycle has repeated itself so many times that I don't even know what's the difference between being lost and being me. I sort of remember but the memory is vague.

I'm just really tired tonight.