Ack.

I'm still trying to figure out where did it all go wrong. There's this nick on my msn list that says 'God gave you life as a gift, not as a problem that needs to be solved'.

Uhhh okay.

Was feeling extremely down just now so decided to watch Le Papillon. Worth every minute of it. Made me feel better, if only for just awhile. It's time to sleep but I'm not tired. I really don't want to wake up later on. I can't bear the thought of facing another day like that. Ack.

Come to think of it, the prospect of having another 30 - 50 years more to live isn't making me feel any better.

What the hell am I gonna do with all that time?!