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Another Change of Location

2009-01-31T14:44:00.002+08:00

Yeah. The cock that Livejournal was sucking was kinda big. So I moved back to blogspot.

The new address is www.jvlz.blogspot.com. I merged this blog with the new one. So my archives are still intact. Plus both blogs look EXACTLY the same. Pretty fucking awesome huh?

Alright see you.

Sign off,

here.

Notification of Change of Address

2008-06-09T00:03:00.001+08:00

http://jvlz.livejournal.com

This isn't permanent. If LJ can't keep up with me, I'll return to blogger. Yay. See you at LJ.

SMLJ!

Uhm phooey.

2008-05-26T14:09:00.002+08:00

Oh yes, the 3rd strike. The final disaster and the ultimate calamity.

My God, I'm stupid.

On the bright side, I've got some ISO 3200 b/w film in my drawer, and 2 expired fuji velvias in my fridge. This should be interesting to shoot. If I can actually get the time that is. Haha.

Fuck I wanna turn back time.

Self.

2008-05-21T01:26:00.002+08:00

I dunno who's right, who's wrong. I dunno whether I even have the right to feel disappointed.

But I'm not feeling too good right now. Did I betray my professional ideals? I probably shouldn't have said so much.

I think mostly, I'm disappointed in me.

2nd mistake. 3rd strike and we're all out of tries.

Don't remind me.

2008-05-17T04:09:00.003+08:00

auralorgasm:: Club 8 - Teenage Life

"...teenage love, crushing every heart, the young can go far but then they'll take it all..."

Well okay so I lied. About not returning that is. The sad truth is just that I miss writing in my own space. Previous visitors might notice a certain post missing. I had to, in order to move on. I don't want to be reminded. Never again. I really hope and pray, please Lord, never again.

A chapter of my life is finally coming to a draw. My conscription is going to end in 3 weeks. I'll then step out into the working world immediately, raw and exposed. Just like an open wound ready to be salted. Yummy.

Fresh fucking meat aye?

auralorgasm:: Catherine Wheel - God Inside My Head

I have been unstable, I have been foolish, I have been needy, I have never been as wrong as I had been. Worse still, I've never been as repentant but yet I still do not feel relief.

I'm cunfuzed. Like never before. Feelings spill over and I'm afraid that I'll slip up and ruin something great.

So... a 23 year old me isn't so much different from when I was still just 17. Same uncertainties, simply just put across to me in a very different way.

Just fucking wonderful.

When the bird has flown.

2007-09-05T14:13:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Nick Drake - Day is Done

Closed. Dead. Will not return. Bye.

stupidfuck.

2007-08-13T02:24:00.000+08:00

I'm like, the biggest fucking idiot in the world.

But 881 is awesome. Like wah smlj. How the fuck they do..?!

But like, I'm still awesome in my role as the biggest idiot in the world.

WHY ME?!

deadinmyhead.

2007-08-05T21:05:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Chen Lei - Unchained Melody (Taiwanese-English Version)

Only 9 months more of being brain-dead. Come on. Come on. COME ON.

I'd love to feel at least some frustration stemming from my situation but uh, I think I've sucked up so much shit from the army that it's clogging up my stress-generator. I feel like a fucking mannequin. A moving, walking, fighting, mannequin.

En garde eh?

I don't wonder what would it be like if I didn't become a commando. I'm fucking sure I'd have a better life being something else, somewhere else in the army.

YES WORKING A 6 DAY WEEK DOING THINGS YOU REALLY HATE WITHOUT TIME FOR FRIENDS OR FAMILY CAN DRIVE YOU FUCKING INSANE.

I... exist.

Just barely.

Alright enough said. Time to suck it up and return to camp. Lalala.

just fucking kill me.

Gastric Pains.

2007-06-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

I wish I could cut myself open with a knife and not hurt for this pain is like a creature deep in me. It's doing something very bad to my insides and for that, I will rip it apart when I pull it out writhing and screeching from my intestines.

Wah I give up.

I NEED MODERN MEDICINE NOW. HELPPPPPPPPPP.

Radiation Hearts Ants.

2007-06-23T09:04:00.000+08:00

I just discovered two very convenient things.

1. My aunt's maid brings lunch for my sister everyday, but my sister eats outside so she puts it in the fridge. Then along comes me. Byebye food.

2. Ants in your microwave oven are easy to get rid of. Just heat up your frozen lunch with them hanging around. Boom. Byebye ants.

Yeah this is my contribution for today towards the world-pool of general knowledge and education.

Thank you.

Inspire my motivation.

2007-06-21T20:54:00.001+08:00

makefilm
filmmake
makefilm
filmmake
makefilm
filmmake
makefilm
filmmake

I r inspired.

By all things that are pornographic.

Alice in Wonderland, an XXX-rated musical, made in 1976. Kristine DeBell is hot.

http://foureyedmonsters.com/watch

Kinda sweet. And very fucking different.

SAF can suck my cock.

Inspire my motivation.

2007-06-21T20:54:00.000+08:00

makefilm
filmmake
makefilm
filmmake
makefilm
filmmake
makefilm
filmmake

I r inspired.

By all things that are pornographic.

Alice in Wonderland, an XXX-rated musical.

http://foureyedmonsters.com/watch

Kinda sweet. And very fucking different.

SAF can suck my cock.

Space Oddity

2007-05-10T19:36:00.000+08:00

"This is Major Tom to Ground Control
I'm stepping through the door
And I'm floating in the most peculiar way
And the stars look very different today

Ground control to Major Tom:
Your circuit's dead, there's something wong.
Can you hear me Major Tom?
Can you hear me Major Tom?
Can you hear me Major Tom? Can you ...

Here am I floating round my tin can, far above the moon
Planet Earth is blue and there's nothing I can do"

I can relate to the poor bastard.

Wormboy

2007-05-10T07:24:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I've written anything and it's sad that I'm writing this under such circumstances.

I've always cherished truth and abhorred lies. But I never thought that hiding the truth would be more difficult than living a lie.

Something happened a few months back in another country. I swore never to commit the same mistake again and tried to move on, burying whatever memories that surfaced. Recently however, something of similar nature occured and now I'm left in self-denial.

Shame grows where truth is buried.

Have I been living a lie all this while? Or have I just been running away from who I really am.

I wish I could know the truth about myself.

And again, not for the first time, and certainly not for the last, I wish I had never been born.

Dead people have it good.

State of Catatonia

2007-01-28T16:09:00.000+08:00

Life as I see it, has come to a complete halt for me. As such, I've made the decision to close this blog for awhile, maybe till the day I regain my freedom.

My mind is in stasis and my body's on autopilot. There's nothing much to say now.

Bye.

:~(

2007-01-02T18:29:00.000+08:00

LKY loves you.

Bandar loves you.

Join the Army.

2008!

2007-01-02T02:48:00.001+08:00

As my leave slowly draws to a close, I find myself getting more and more depressed. I want to remain outside and work, lead my own life, do my own shit without someone telling me what to do, when to do, and how to do. I want to follow my passion, expand on something which I'm good at, make it work out for me.

I want to be happy and carefree, or at least as close to happy and carefree as it gets. Which seems to be can't-be-bothered-fuck-off kinda thing.

Fuck no, I'm not good at being a soldier. To be honest, I totally suck at it. Yep, that's right. I SUCK AT BEING A SOLDIER.

They should have fucking aptitude tests for the army. I would have failed everything instantly. I could go my whole life without ever stepping into the bloody jungle. You know, I'm all for tree-hugging and forest conservation but if this goes on, I'm changing my stand.

Cut down every single tree please. I don't care about soil erosion or the oxygen/carbon dioxide balance. In fact, I wouldn't mind stepping on concrete and breathing from tanks if it comes down to that.

But shit still lands on me and I still got to book in tomorrow. Very sian.

I'm going to close my eyes and imagine for this whole year that '07 never came about and we'd skip right to '08, when I'll finally ORD.

No, not happy new year. Fuck that. I'm waiting for '08.

2008!

2007-01-02T02:48:00.000+08:00

As my leave slowly draws to a close, I find myself getting more and more depressed. I want to remain outside and work, lead my own life, do my own shit without someone telling me what to do, when to do, and how to do. I want to follow my passion, expand on something which I'm good at, make it work out for me.

I want to be happy and carefree, or at least as close to happy and carefree as it gets. Which seems to be can't-be-bothered-fuck-off kinda thing.

Fuck no, I'm not good at being a soldier. To be honest, I totally suck at it. Yep, that's right. I SUCK AT BEING A SOLDIER.

They should have fucking aptitude tests for the army. I would have failed everything instantly. I could go my whole life without ever stepping into the bloody jungle. You know, I'm all for tree-hugging and forest conservation but if this goes on, I'm changing my stand.

Cut down every single tree please. I don't care about soil erosion or the oxygen/carbon monoxide balance. In fact, I wouldn't mind stepping on concrete and breathing from tanks if it comes down to that.

But shit still lands on me and I still got to book in tomorrow. Very sian.

I'm going to close my eyes and imagine for this whole year that '07 never came about and we'd skip right to '08, when I'll finally ORD.

No, not happy new year. Fuck that. I'm waiting for '08.

They kill Saddam. YOU BASTARDS.

2006-12-30T17:22:00.000+08:00

My eyes are throbbing like tweeters on full basslines, my chest feels like an alien spawn is trying to claw its way out, my nose is full of cottonballs and dead people and my head is a whole world of pain.

And fuck they hung Saddam, which just completely destroys my day.

For the millionth time, I wish I wasn't myself but someone else.

Deforestation Means A Lot More Than Just The Fall Of Trees

2006-12-29T19:58:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Arcade Fire - Neighbourhood #3 (Power Out)

I'm going to abandon blogger soon. It's starting to really suck. Livejournal's looking quite good from where I'm standing.

Went around to take some pictures today and was stopped by the progress of the human race. Am going to try again tomorrow.

On a side note, I'm feeling down. Would anyone like to try cheering me up?

I'm trying to fend off this feeling of depression with some dark chocolate which Cherie brought back from Korea. Everytime I pop one in my mouth, I feel better for about 5 minutes, before it dissolves in my mouth and I'm left with just the bitter.

I would hate to abandon this blog though. Too many pictures and memories lie buried within it's archives. I really hope blogger solves whatever shit it has soon.

Kill me.

Guess you can't stop progress.

Friends of Fairweather

2006-12-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

I finally met kids like me.

I finally found out where my friends have been disappearing to all these years.

Rock la.

2006-12-23T13:54:00.000+08:00

My leave has officially started!

MORE TIME TO BE BORED YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Can't wait. I haven't seen my friends in such a long time. (what friends? hur hur hur)

So how? ANYONE WANT TO JIO ME OUT OR NOT?!?!?!?!?!

COME COME JIO ME OUT YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

p.s: i predict i'll post about nothing at all in about 3 days time. I'm so fucking predictable hur.

Stupidity is Contagious.

2006-12-17T18:04:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Muse - Stockholm Syndrome

I think I'm stupid.

Eggs and ham and fried eggs sunny-side up. Hmm. What are we gonna do on Christmas?

Fuck Christmas, I'm having my leave starting 23rd. WHAT AM I GONNA DO!??!

Weird, I never had this problem before.

Ride Dirt

2006-12-17T02:16:00.000+08:00

Just got back from A&E at Tan Tock Seng Hospital coz my chest hurts like fuck.

Went to trail just now and when landing after jumping the ramp, my front tire hit the ground
a bit too hard and my chest hit the handlebar.

Now I'm suffering. Ohhhhhhhhhh the painnnnnnnnnn.

Pain la fuck.

But thank God nothing wrong with my chest, although the doctor had me worried for a moment.
He was all like, 'Sorry, I need to take a few more xrays so yah, come back in the room please.'
Bloody fuckkk.

k night.

Airborne, ALL THE WAY

2006-12-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Bjork - An Echo, A Stain

I'm glad to say I survived my first two jumps to make it through to the weekend. Got a huge shock when we found out we were gonna jump from Chinook.

5 seconds freefall. My balls were at my throat the moment the heli ramp came down.

One thousand, two thousand, three thousand, four thou... OMG HOW COME MY CHUTE HAVEN'T OPEN!?! Wah power la the feeling, free-falling all the way.

1st landing was okay, 2nd landing I nearly broke both my legs and cracked open my skull. Chao cheebye wind.

K I'm shacked out g'night.

I of the Mourning

2006-12-09T16:16:00.000+08:00

The Decemberists - The Crane Wife 3

Wah fuck The Decemberist's new album damn shiok. Hahaha.

I'm quite the happy fucker right now. Just got my bike out of the workshop after 2 weeks and it's better than when I first got it lol. The power, the speed, and the acceleration have all increased and for the first time, the signal lights actually work!

But of course, now that everything's so zhnged up, my brakes aren't good enough for the bike anymore. Now my stopping distance has increased like twice over. Hahaha yay!

Next bike, Suzuki DRZ-SM K6 WOOHOO!

Mormons hahaha.

2006-12-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

This rocks.

Early Childhood Education

2006-11-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

I was just watching this show on Arts Central about Super Nannies and how they deal with kids and their methods involve sending the kid to a place called a 'Naughty Roomm' for a timeout whenever they're caught being uhm... "Naughty".

The father was all for smacking the shit outta the kid but the mom and supernanny was more about love and care and all that other useless rubbish. They were sadly convinced that it was gonna help the kid in the long run if they praised him for admitting that he lied.

From past experience, that won't help the kid any. He's gonna grow up to be a walking doormat.

Smack the shit outta the kid I say! You gotta teach the kid early that if he tells the truth, bad things will happen. You gotta teach him the importance of lying and cheating and doing stuff like this without getting caught.

Getting caught is for losers. Lie, steal, cheat, kill, do whatever you want... BUT NEVER EVER GET CAUGHT!

If not, daddy's gonna fuckin' take you down.

Dulan

2006-11-26T09:01:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: The Cardigans - Travelling With Charley

Spent the whole of Saturday and Saturnight doing guard duty. Fucking waste of time. 1 and a half years more to go. Time can't pass fast enough.

Having lots of problems with the bike. To make things worse, I can't even go take my 2A coz my unit doesn't allow us to take leave for this kinda things. Not important they say. Pfft. And staying in camp to do fuckall is important?

Ohhh the things I'll say to them when I finally ORD... oh yeahh. Can't wait.

But on a nicer note, I got myself the 60gig Vision W. Haven't used it long enough to say whether it's worth the $640 I paid for it but the screen is just OMG. Aye.

Fuck la can't be bothered bye.

Voluntary Insomniac

2006-11-16T05:11:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Misery Signals - Reverence Lost

I R BORED.

It seems that I've come back to my routine of staring at my computer at 5am in the morning, not willing to sleep, yet having nothing to do, in hopes of having a sudden epiphany.

And no it doesn't fucking work.

Live Leave

2006-11-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Deerhoof - Panda Panda Panda

Oh yeahhhh it's finally here. The moment I've been waiting for. Finally, I'm on leave!

FUCK YEAH.

This seriously rocks. I don't have to book in till like Sunday night and on monday, we cross over to signal camp where it's just (or so I've heard), so slack. I've become an idler :D

Yep, another 5 days of pure ennui, of many many plans to do nothing and of many many many hours spent being bored. Hmmm, I love leave.

I find it really amusing that I've spent the whole of my NS life so far waiting for my leave to finally be approved and now that I have it, I have no idea what to do with myself.

Reminds me of the White Stripes.

"...I don't know what to do with myself..."

PANDA PANDA PANDA PANDA CHINA!

My Brother's Blood Machine

2006-11-12T16:56:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: The Prize Fighter Inferno - The Missing McCloud Boys

I'm incredibly excited to proclaim to the world that I'm in possession of THE PRIZE FIGHTER INFERNO'S NEW ALBUM WOOOHOOOO.

C'mon everyone, be jealous of me muahahaha.

Oh yeah it's good it's fucking good. It's like Coheed, but midi-ed and much more chilled out. FUCKING SHIT IT'S FANTASTIC!

And wtf Josh and Mic are no more in Coheed and what is this I hear? THEY'RE REPLACING JOSH WITH DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN'S DRUMMER?!

WTF WTF WTF. Next album confirm mad.

This rocks. \m/

(omgisoundlikeafuckinggroupiepleaseignorethispost)

Dynamic Symmetry

2006-11-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Brian Transeau [BT] - Good Morning Kaia

First off, apologies all round to those whom I told that electronic music sucked balls. I take every single word back. I'll even swallow them back down if it makes you happy! The truth is, Brian Transeau's This Binary Universe is so good, it makes me want to.. I don't know, do stuff I never thought I'll do before!

Yes andrw, you can stop smiling now.

Btw, Frank Klepacki's also up there with him but yah. (Out of point but I'll always remain loyal to the creator of the Command & Conquer series soundtrack!)

I sense my own impending doom. uh-oh.

HOUSTON WE'VE GOT A PROBLEM.

Au Contraire

2006-11-11T04:08:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Brian Transeau [BT] - The Antikythera Mechanism

This has not been a good night. Too many memories resurfacing, too many desires left unfulfilled.

Dear Lord, why do you torment me so?

This Binary Universe

2006-11-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Brian Transeau [BT] - 1.618

According to Paulo Coehlo, I'm alright being mad.

Cool.

Collide (kaRIN & Statik) - Euphoria

2006-11-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Killswitch Engage - The End of Heartache

So, Saddam's sentenced to hang at last. Quite surprised at the verdict actually, didn't expect that they'll really hang him. After all, it's feels so anti-climatical. I mean, he's up there with like Hitler and Stalin and Mao and Ho and Marx. Oh well, he'll live on in history anyway.

So another week has passed, another week closer to my ORD date. Time really can't pass fast enough.

I watched Step Up yesterday and uhm, yah not bad. Worth the entertainment anyway. And those of you who liked the GTA series, GO WATCH CRANK. OMG it's like fucking GTA THE MOVIE.

Hahaha it's awesome. No wait, better than awesome! It's like the hot coffee mod, TWICE OVER! w00t.

YEAH.

King of Loathing in his Kingdom of Loathing (.com)

2006-11-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Circa Survive - Stop the Fucking Car

The week has been quite hectic; my trained abilities as a photographer been exploited again and again. Although honestly, any fucking goondu could take the stuff I'm asked to take.

Yes Mr O.C Sir, whatever you say Mr O.C Sir.

Everything is just getting better and better. It's settled down to some sort of half-fucked truce in camp, meaning we don't step on each other's tails unless it's truly necessary. Kind of cool, everyone avoiding each other, all itching to start something but having nothing to use as a reason to justify.

auralorgasm:: Spitalfield - Won't Back Down

In my desperate bid to do something different in order to elevate my boredom, I have decided to make plans (YEAH I'M ACTUALLY MAKING PLANS) for next saturday. In the morning, I shall go wakeboarding (my virgin attempt), fall asleep in the afternoon, and go fishing at night.

But no doubt, my plans will fail. Sigh.

Okay I'm supposed to leave now to attend some Hari Raya gathering at a friend's place. Haven't seen them for a long while. Time to reconnect aye? Hahaha.

Oh and btw, Cherie's in Korea so yeah, godspeed, goodtrip to you Ms Anpanface.

"...numbers don't have to lie...."

Gonefucked.stuckina Rut.

2006-10-22T21:50:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Frank Klepacki - Red Alert 2 - Hell March 2

note: This reworked version of Hell March has so much more bite than the original.

Weekend after weekend it's the same old same old. There really isn't anything that interests me anymore. Now I really understand why Kelvin Tong says that the Army emasculates us Singaporean males emotionally.

It bleeds me dry, it really does. Not to say that I've not accepted it of course, in fact, my easy acceptance of this half-fucked reality is what that scares me.

I used to think that 2 years in the army is a short time, then I realised that it only seems short once it's over. It's hella-long while you're in it.

I crave something more than what's on the plate. Something new, something refreshing. Can't blame me for getting into fights if this is how it's gonna be like. So damn secondary school.

I guess it's no one's fault that everything has become so stale, stagnant and so bloody repetitive. Maybe it's just me. I dunno. I sort of know the way to get myself out of this funk but I can't possibly allow that to happen. I still don't trust myself enough after all these years.

Yeah, another long whiny post. Shoot me. I deserve it.

Blame it on Testosterone

2006-10-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I'm such an asshole that I can't even stand myself, let alone have others tolerate me. Which is why I recommend that people like me get shot dead asap. We don't deserve to live on this beautiful planet.

The reason I say this is because I got into a fight just now in camp of my own instigation. Why? Because I was bored. Wtf. Dumbfuck me.

But then again, fuck it. I don't care. :D

21st Chapter

2006-10-15T13:44:00.000+08:00

I was wrong, it turned out better than expected.

Waterfall + Graveyard + misc. drinks = Sloshed, wasted, sehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Thanks for the drinks guys.

Happy 21st me.

Shadowline

2006-10-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

Godhead - Fall Down

I came home to find peace and quiet, to indulge in some self-deception of security and I get people pissing the fuck outta me the moment I come online.

It just hasn't been a good day, and it's not likely to get very much better in the near future. I feel retarded and depressed.

I guess it's normal then.

2006-10-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

I thought I'd outgrown this but apparently, you're never too old to feel alone.

Fucking haze.

2006-10-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

The haze is pissing me off. Big time.

New episode of southpark has started.

Pulch just reinforces my opinion that David Firth is a genius. Those that think otherwise, can go help solve the ageing population problem.

I want to go Johor and eat dinner at San Low seafood, which is probably the only place in Johor, no wait, Malaysia, worth patronising.

I have absolutely fuckall to do tonight. So much for bookout day.

Wah lao eh.

2006-10-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

No jump ah. Sian. Because of the haze, the pilot refused to fly so sigh, no jump. Next jump is on the 19th, when if all goes well, we'll do two jumps but only if there's enough slots.

But frankly, I'm quite relieved that the week is finally over. Being adrenaline-pumped whenever I thought of jump day gets tiring really fast. Not to mention that I get to spend my weekend uninjured hahaha.

Okay I'm tired, so I shall go to bed. Good night world!

Heh I sound so optimistic and happy. It's been a long time.

Leap of Faith

2006-10-01T13:57:00.000+08:00

I'm jumping this friday and there's only two words that can describe my mood right now.

Scared shitless.

It's really interesting how we humans can try to cheat death by putting so much faith in a combination of nylon and steel. Whatever the fuck were we thinking when we invented the chute?

I hate humans.

SOLVE THE AGEING POPULATION PROBLEM! KILL YOUR YOUNG! GIVE SERIAL KILLERS COOKIES! THANK YOU AL QUEDA!

Prevention at its best :)

Yeah there's really nothing else to say other than my computer is going to crash soon and there's nothing I can do about it. There goes the rest of my pictures, and all of my music :(

I R VERY FUCKING SAD.

Contentment

2006-09-24T04:03:00.000+08:00

One thing I really loathe about NS life is how it fucks up my body clock. Because of this major problem, I kept falling asleep while watching The Banquet yesterday at 2am. Fuckkk.

Anyway, The Banquet is a lovely visual feast. Storywise it's okay but I'm getting quite sick of the whole fighting choreography thing. No doubt it's nice and graceful and beautiful to westerners but personally, it gets old pretty quick. Probably because I grew up on Once Upon A Time in China style gongfu flicks, whereby the choreography is fast and furious, not like the current fad where it's all like Crouching-Tiger-Hidden-Dragonlike. So slow, so graceful, so plastic.

However, the sets are really impressive, the props elaborate, but what's with the women's eyebrows in the film? I thought I'd seen the last of those eyebrows after I watched Rashomon. WEIRDASS. Thank God I don't live in that era, if not I'd turn gay.

Fucking squirrels shaved my eyebrows while I was asleep.

Heh heh heh, spot the similarities?

Okay enough of taking the piss out of weird-eyebrowed women. One revelation I discovered about people recently is that people are only happy when they have stuff to complain about. I think it's just human nature to whine about everyfuckingthing on planet earth.

Yah.

Peace by the river.

Yoshimi vs the Pink Robots

2006-09-17T18:46:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: The Flaming Lips - Fight Test

Another week has passed and well, nothing much has been happening of late, other than the fact that I suddenly have this crazy itch to get an MP3 player which has enough space to store about 18 gigs of music and videos.

Ipod video, or Creative Vision W?

Dilemmas, dilemmas, and more dilemmas. Haha, if only life had more of this trivial problems rather than less huge pain-in-the-butt ones, it'll be perfect.

Oh yeah, my airborne course starts next week so uhm, hopefully in about a month to 2 months time I'll be able to get my wings. Har har har.

I think I'm growing stupid.

Over and out.

POP LOH!

2006-09-10T08:56:00.000+08:00

I have finally joined the ranks of countless Singaporean males that have claimed the right to say 'POP LOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH'.

And can I just say I love my new jungle hat?

HAHAHAHAHA. NO MORE BOTAK. NO MORE CHAO RECRUIT. FUCKING HELL 3 MORE MONTHS CLOSER TO ORD. w00t.

And after 2 more weeks of cross-training, I will be going for the airborne course. Fucking sweeeeeeeeee. The wings are gonna be the best birthday present in my 21 years of life.

Forgive me if I sound like your typical NS dickhead but hey, POP LOHHHHHH!

Dom, me, David.

And mervyn. Fucking hell I look damn spaghetti-like.

POP LOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

AMEN.

***

I have not watched S11, nor have I watched Adam's Apples, nor have I watched The Devil Wears Prada. No time ah fuck. But I watched Singapore Dreaming and it's not too bad. But there's just too much tragedy inside, so much so that it's quite laughable heh.

hurhurhur.

My Name is Alt

2006-08-13T12:36:00.000+08:00

Watched Hard Candy and Sophie Scholl: The Final Days yesterday.

Both were fucking good.

The acting is Sophie Scholl is excellent, making it a joy to watch. Good character development was also a plus, and hearing Sophie Scholl arguing her case is soooooooo niceeee.

The only thing was that it was quite slow at some points, but that's about it.

Hard Candy is just psycho. Reminds me a lot of Old Boy, with that whole psycho vengeance thing which you just don't get right up till the end. Motives and reasons weren't really fully revealed, so that kind of pissed me off a little. Personally I recommend everyone watch it, but I don't really like it myself. It's a good film but just not my type.

Next on my list are Adam's Apples and S11 (must support local film!! Plus, it looks good, although I think it'll be similar to Pulp Fiction, judging by the trailers).

I'll be in outfield next week and so won't be booking back out till like 2 weeks later. Fuckingggggggg hell.

Die ah.

Teardrop

2006-08-10T02:15:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: The Stiletto Formal - The Mistress and the Matador

I'm like in a half-fucked state of nirvana; with so much lovely songs to listen to, why would I want to go back to hell?

A lot of things are passing me by. I just found out that the lostprophets released Liberation Transmission last month, and I didn't know. Fuckkkkkkk. But anyway, heard two of the tracks and uhm, it's tough to say this but it's not as good as I thought it would be. Why do the tracks sound so poppy-punk? Ahhh. Questions.

fakesoundofprogress was the first and best, not to say that Start Something didn't appeal to me but FSOP was by far one of the the rawest and most original piece of work I've heard. Fantastic.

My eyes are tired but I'm determined to stay awake. I don't care, I plan to fully utilise my time in civilised society, even if it means staying awake and doing absolutely fuckall.

Ahhhh, I can never get tired of Massive Attack's Teardrop. So nice to know that certain songs will always be special to you, no matter the time, the place, the number of times you play them... :)

I revel in schadenfreude.

zap!

Guns, God, the Government.

2006-08-09T02:00:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Marilyn Manson - The Speed of Pain

I'm losing my mind.

Help.

...

"...just remember, when you think you're free,
the crack inside your fucking heart is me..."

Memories of memories.

2006-08-08T20:40:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: The Petit Project - guess i gotta guess

I was feeling quite down until I uncovered this little gem stuck somewhere in my computer's hard drive. Wakes up memories of being happy back when I was 14. The Petit Project was my constant companion back then, listening to them whenever I felt like shit and now, 7 years later, it still works.

Hahaha I'm glad they still haven't disbanded. I checked them out on google and it seems like their doing quite well. Yay.

Yeah my hard drive is dead, so I lost almost all the digital photos that I took in Vietnam. Very very fortunately, I used film for some shots so yeah, I've got some surviving photos left. THANK GOD.

Being in the army makes me realise I haven't lost my talent of getting pissed off yet. It's been an awful week and with the dreaded outfield camp the coming week, I see no light winking at me at the end of whichever proverbial tunnel.

Fuckin hell.

The Shits

2006-07-30T09:47:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Smashing Pumpkins - Stand inside your love

I just finished watching Dogtown and the Z-boys (the documentary, not the movie) and I'm feeling fuckin mad coz I feel I've just missed out on something great. Doesn't help that I'm hungry and I want breakfast but at the same time I'm too lazy to go out and eat.

My world is full of shit. Gah.

So peeved, so irritated. Such a fucked up sunday morning with nothing to look forward to. Fuck it, I think I'll attempt to make my morning a bit more tolerable by having my favourite breakfast - Four pieces of toast with butter and sugar, two eggs, one cup of kopi-o, and a cigarette.

Maybe two sticks.

Ahh I'm feeling better already.

*edit:
Okay just finished my meal and I'm feeling just fineeeeeeeeeeee w00t.

auralorgasm:: Marilyn Manson - Astonishing Paranoma of the Endtimes

The first Manson song I ever heard. How nostalgic.

Got rice?

Shack ah.

2006-07-30T07:04:00.000+08:00

This is really getting me down. I come back on saturdays and I'm too tired to go out. Last saturday I spent the whole day sleeping and this saturday the same. Fucking hell. Bastards in camp saves the worst for bookout day so we can use the weekend to sleep and recover in preparation for the week ahead. FUCK AH.

Sibei dulan.

Anyway, Nacho Libre wasn't as good as I thought it would be. Napolean Dynamite was much much muchhh better. Jack Black pisses me off, him and that stupid mexican accent. Supposed to watch Lady in the Water last night but yeah, fell asleep blah blah blah.

If all else fails today, I'm just gonna sulk and watch Full Metal Alchemist. That's gonna take up the whole day I guess. Hah.

Oh yeah, I fucking hate outfield. My god. Worst place to be on earth.

I'M A FUCKING CITY BOY I DON'T BELONG OUT THERE IN THE WILDS WITH GIANT GRASSHOPPERS AND NO PLACE TO SMOKE.

Fucking hell I hate the army.

2006-07-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

I'm in so much pain I don't know whether I'll recover by the time I book in.

However, whenever I think of the poor guy whom we plastered with Yoko yoko, medicated oil, Prickly Heat, Colgate and Kiwi, life doesn't seem so bad after all haw haw haw.

I would love to post more pictures but since everything is down, I can't do anything.

Watched 3 movies the last weekend - Havoc, Pirates of the Carribean 3, and Thank you for Smoking. Of the lot, Thank You for Smoking was the winner, hands down. Damn solid show. Too witty for its own good haha.

Havoc was quite okay but it kinda disappointed at the end. Or maybe it was just because spider told me the ending halfway through the show. She everytime liddat. Buay tahan.

Pirates of the Carribean 3 was also okay only. Not fantastic. 6 outta 10. But Johnny Depp's always good and well, ditto for Keira Knightley. eh but she uglier ah...?

Probably gonna watch Lady in the Water tonight but I'm not really sure yet. Unforgiven sounds good but I think I had about enough of Army. Hahaha 1 month 3 weeks in only and I'm already fucked up. Steady laaaaaaaa.

K ciao.

2006-07-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

OMG ANOTHER WEEK IS OVER YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. That brings me one more week closer to ORD. Yay another 1 year, 11 months and 3 weeks more. Won't be long now :D

My pay for Mosaic finally came in. And it's not the amount that was promised but since I already gave up on it, it comes as a nice surprise. Like free money hahaha.

I'm destined not to have a portfolio I think. The other time, my laptop crashed and I lost a fuckload of photos including everything I took in Cambodia. This time, my brother's hard-drive got fucked and I'm in danger of losing every single fucking piece I ever took since I started. Damn pek cek.

The lineup at baybeats is damn bad this year. Nothing seems interesting and most of the bands are recycled from other years. I'm skipping this year's in hopes that next year would be better. Haiya also not much hope la haha.

K movie marathon tonight with the k.c.spider. Money fly flyyyyy.

Fuck lor.

2006-07-08T19:39:00.000+08:00

I'm not gonna make it I'm not gonna make it I'm not gonna make it.

9 weeks to 12 pulls ups. FUCK AH. I'm dead even before I even started. Chaoooooooo cheebyeeeeeeeeeee.

The duck named Rashad.

2006-07-03T17:33:00.000+08:00

-chortle-

Rashad.

There you are, minding your own as well as others' businesses, taking photos of unsuspecting vietnamese and suddenly...

this thing pops up suddenly into your frame and you click the trigger out of pure shock. As a result:

GET OUT OF MY FRAME LA WTF.

Super Baby Blaster 5.03 vX.RT

2006-07-03T14:21:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Sondre Lerche - Days that are over

Sondre Lerche is my new drug.

I really can't wait for Pirates of Carribean 3 to be released. I've had enough weekends of crappy movies thank you very much. Superman Returns sucked so much shit that I had to boil my eyeballs when I got home, or what remained of my eyeballs anyway. The King and the Clown wasn't too bad; it was reminscent of Farewell my Concubine which was and still is one of my favourite films.

Hung out with various people this weekend. My love and appreciation to all of them for wasting their time and mine. One thing though, Mr Dysfunktionale seems to have disappeared. Oei Marcus where you? I call you also phone off you cheebehhhh.

HJ has introduced me to a new, needless, and unneccesary artform called VJing, also known as Video Jocking. Nevertheless, I'm interested and I have promised myself to give it a try in a few weeks when I've gotten used to everything army. (Which is unlikely to happen. How can anyone get used to military life, not to mention even liking it?)

Booking in later at 9pm. FUCKING SIAN. I shall go stock up on my weekly supply of Snickers and Oreo cookies. Why? Because I can. Hah.

'nuff said. Meet my new friend.

The-heavenly-cow-that-pondered-upon-the-sorrows-of-life. Hur hur hur.

2006-07-01T15:46:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: I can make a mess like nobody's business - So I decided to give myself a reason

It's back to secondary school with the army. I feel like 14 instead of 21.

Good news though, the film which I shot in Vietnam has turned out quite nice, but have to send for printing again. Apparently when I told my brother to print it, I forgot to tell him that it's cross-processed and to go to Ruby so he just went to some fuckall shop to print it. And that is how I've wasted 17 dollars to print photos which the guy at the shop thought it was 'discoloured' and therefore needed to be 'saved', thus the increasing of contrast and the lowering of exposure. Now everything looks all black and shitty and horrible.

But should be better once it's been professionally printed.

Anyway, saw an extremely nice bike today. Suzuki Vanvan. Never see before. DAMN NICE AHHHH. Best thing is 160cc only hahahaha.

Here we goo-oo-oo-oo-HEY, commandoo-oo-oo-oo-HEY!...

arrer tarded.

2006-06-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

I forgot to mention that I watched an hour of local television just now and now I've become retarded. Just in time for military life too!

Cock rock.

Rockgina.

The Kommando

2006-06-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Nada Surf - If You Leave (OMD Cover)

This isn't child porn, although it looks very much like it.

Yep, I'm enlisting in about 24 hours and I haven't prepared my stuff or done anything yet. The only constructive thing I've done in preparation was to do abit of running and God knows how that's gonna help me.

I'm fucked to no end.

Heidi and Peter (Vietnam remix)

Sigh, I guess after you fall into a ricefield and emerge covered with cowdung and mud, your perspective of life changes and you realise that everything is as permanent as the mud on the seat of your pants.

Catching Fish

I'll post again.

Self-explainatory

2006-06-07T15:22:00.000+08:00

I kid you not.

Look carefully.

A sea of green.

BACK IN SG

2006-06-04T13:53:00.000+08:00

Alright I'm finally back and it feels damned weird. Everyone speaks english and no one is trying to rip me off (I mean, they don't have to since everything is already so expensive anyway 0.o).

We missed our flight thanks to the Vietnamese idea of efficiency. Told the reception to book the taxi for us at 5pm and he started calling for taxis at 5pm. Wtf. Waited to 5.30 before he finally got a free cab; almost all the cabs in the fucking country was busy. WE'RE TALKING LIKE ABOUT 12 TAXI COMPANIES HERE AND ALL THE CABS WEREN'T AVAILABLE?!?!

WTF.

Okay never mind. The taxi finally came at about 6pm and we loaded up our bags, only doing a little detour to buy cigarettes and we saw so many things during that ride. A rainbow in a cloud during a sunset. Simply gorgeous.

Then the taxi stopped at 6.30pm to, of all things, really, PUMP PETROL.

KNNBCCBWTFBBQ. MY FLIGHT WAS AT FUCKING 7.05PM AND THIS DICK WAS USING MY TIME TO PUMP FUCKING PETROL WTF WTF WTF. (We were quite obviously horrifed, to say the least).

So we finally reached the airport at 6.45pm and guess what, the dumbclucks at the checkin point refused to help us. Just refused to. Nope, they said, and continued to act busy. Stupid shits.

So we missed our flight and was stuck at the airport with no money, no friends, no contacts, no tickets, and no idea of what to do. HAH. That was fun.

But we finally got 2 other tickets, one to fly from Hanoi to Bangkok, and another from Bangkok to Singapore, which cost us an extra 220SGD which just makes my heart bleed. But oh well, I hate Vietnamese.

I think the country is lovely but the people there are just fucked up. I met like maybe 5 nice Viets out of maybe 381936183947192 nasty Viets. The trip this time was really fun. Next, either India -> Tibet or Hanoi -> China or Australia -> New Zealand (where we're gonna buy a secondhand van and drive everywhere by ourselves!).

Shell 95 HAS RISEN TO THE PRICE OF V-POWER A FEW MONTHS AGO WTF. My bike's petrol tank has been fucked with, and I'm enlisting in about 5 days.

5 DAYS WAH LAN EH.

Sigh. Yeah, I'm back in Singapore.

Hanoi

2006-05-21T09:57:00.000+08:00

It's 8.56am now and I've just reached Hanoi an hour ago. Haven't gotten the chance to explore this part of Vietnam yet but it really does seem so much more quaint and charming than the other areas.

The countryside at Hue is simply lovely. Verdant green and wheat yellow, such a smooth blend of colours. Took some pictures, hoping it won't screw up when it's processed.

Right, so later on I'll be going to check out Uncle Ho's embalmed body at the Mausoleum. Apparently they did the same preservation thing as Mao and Lenin, only that Mao's body is rotting coz the Chinese stuffed him themselves while HCM and Lenin's body is still a necrophiliac's dream as the Russians did the job.

These commies are fuckin wacked.

Saw an accident happen just now. Two bikes colliding into each other. Fantastic. Now I got 4D to buy. Yay.

*edit:
Chicks seem to get a lot uglier the more we travel Southwards.

Urgh.

Hue

2006-05-19T09:51:00.000+08:00

I tried dog meat last night. Wasn't very nice. It has got a very pungent taste which was just awful. The dog meat stew was much better. Tasted a bit like beef but much tougher. Hmm.

The best part of the evening was when I took a video of Chris trying dog meat and puking everything out wahahaha. Here's an excerpt of what happened:

Chris: WAH LAO IT'S DOG LA! FUCK, IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE CUTE!
Me: Yah it's still cute what. I never seen such meat looking so cute on a plate before.

I hope snake meat will be a much better experience.

As usual, getting ripped off by everybody. We hired these two motorbike drivers cum tour guides for 30 USD for the 3 days, and after the first stop, (Elephant Springs), it turned out that we had to pay for their cigarettes, their petrol, and their meals. WTF. Gonna end that shit later on.

Btw, Elephant Springs is just gorgeous. Yeak Lohm Lake in Cambodia just doesn't hold a candle to what this baby has to offer. Such a lovely place.

Took a few pictures here and there, but unfortunately, missed out on a few excellent kodak moment opportunities. Bloody hell.

Btw, to Dom and Mervyn, I'll be returning friday, 2nd June, so on Saturday we go to this fantastic restaurant in JB makan. Steady laaaaaaaa. Make sure that bloody David updates his passport. Steady.

K I'll update when I'm in Hanoi. Seems like a fantastic place with Halong Bay, Cat Ba Island (where we finally get to ride!), and Sapa to look forward to.

I hate hate hate getting ripped off KNNBCCB.

Bia Saigon

2006-05-15T11:49:00.000+08:00

3500 dong - 7000 dong for one litre of beer.

That's 35 cents and 70 cents per litre.

Ahhhhhhh. This is why I love HCMC.

Old Uncle Ho!

2006-05-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMG I LOVE HO CHI MINH!

The girls here are beautiful, the people here so nice, the traffic so crazy! Bloody hell I can't stop the exclaimation marks!

Plus, we found that the stall next to our guesthouse cooks the best beef noodles EVER. Shite.

Went to the Cu Chi tunnels this morning and it's really quite disappointing. For those not in the know, the tunnels were used by the Vietcong to kick American arses during the war. But anyway, all we did was to look at holes in the ground, crawl through holes (enlarged of course, for the benefit of your average sized caucasian tourist), and eat tapioca with ground peanut and salt.

The tapioca tasted good though heh.

They were selling these lighters, pens, and other such jazz like these made from authentic bullets but it was such a pity that I couldn't get one. Cheap too. A big shell lighter costs about 3.80 SGD but fuck la Singapore cannot bring bullets through customs. SIBEI SIAN CAN.

Right, I'm off to Benh Tanh Market to do a bit of shopping (yeah, souveniors for you cheapskates) so maybe I'll post again in Hoi An. See how ah.

Ahhh can't wait to get my hands on some Uncle Ho shirts w00t.

Note - Cambodians might take offence at this:
Btw, both thai girls and viet girls are beautiful (I should know, I thought I'd died and gone to heaven at Khao San Street), but something happened to the girls in the middle. Cambodian girls are cute at most, maybe 1 cute one out of 10,000 normal (ahem) looking ones, but thai and viet girls just break the mould haha.

P.S: JON YOU OWE ME 55 BAHT.

Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam

2006-05-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

Right, we finally hit Ho Chi Minh City and the traffic is WACKOS.

Hahahaha. Happy sia.

Siem Reap, Cambodia

2006-05-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

3rd checkpoint hit! We're in Siem Reap, Cambodia and running over schedule by about 3 days, due to missed buses and longass travel times.

2000+ kilometres later and we're still going strong. Hope this steam will last heh.

Thailand, Bangkok

2006-05-11T02:02:00.000+08:00

2nd checkpoint hit!

Just finished a 24 hour ride from Seramban to Bangkok and it's fucking steam ah.

Met Jon just now after running around looking for a phone to call from. Some expat angmoh was kind enough to lend us his phone so yeah. Later on Jon fucked up by telling us to meet him at Night Supper Club when the name was Bed Supper Club.

Jon is fucked up.

Hur.

Will post in Ho Chi Minh.

Malaysia Seramban

2006-05-09T13:45:00.000+08:00

1st checkpoint hit!

Next stop, Kuala Lumpur, then to Bangkok!

:D:D:D:D

Souljah

2006-05-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

Selling my laptop, cutting hair, finalizing plans for trip, all tomorrow.

Happening only woohoo!

In a month's time I'll be a soldier. Kanina si botak!

Ol' Skool

2006-04-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

Even better than Nintendo, even more fun than Sega,

Bareknuckle 3, spiced up with a bit of Alien Hominid/Metal Slug, plus just a tiny bit of Streetfighter vs X-men, Paul Robertson presents...

Pirate Baby's Cabana Street Fight 2006!

P.S: Opera browser sucks shit so the 'link' button on blogger doesn't work. Just copy and paste the following link to enjoy: http://www.devilducky.com/media/44827/

Old school has never been so fun.

inStagnation

2006-04-27T17:06:00.000+08:00

I really don't like ungrateful people.

:D

2006-04-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

Khalil Rod has joined in the trip! He'll be meeting us at Ho Chi Minh city and exploring the rest of Vietnam with us. Those that are interested but have not enough 1) money or 2) time, can arrange to meet us directly in one of the areas in Vietnam.

If you have maybe 5 - 6 days, can arrange to meet in Hanoi. It's our last stop but also gonna be sibei happening stop. We're saving the best for last hur hur hur.

Those with NS but who wants to go, TAKE LEAVE LA CHEEBYE!

Secret Machines

2006-04-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Secret Machines - Lightning Blue Eyes

Fuck I haven't adored any song as much as this one since Deathcab's Title and Registration. Secret Machine's album, Ten Silver Drops is definitely a good downl..ahem buy.

"...Lightning blue eyes, reflected sunrise..."

Lax.

2006-04-19T19:20:00.000+08:00

- Will trade soul for 1) Princess Mononoke DVD, 2) Kiki's Delivery Service DVD, 3) My Neighbour Totoro DVD, (Yes it's true, I'm sadly addicted to Hayao Miyazaki's stuff.) 4) full set of Full Metal Alchemist season episode DVDs + FMA movie DVD.

- Also, will consider trading best friend's soul for the full set of books written by Wilbur Smith.

- Had been feeling blocked up around the intestinal area for the past few days so bought laxatives for the first time in my life. Recommended dosage was 1 pill. I did as instructed, then popped another pill just for kicks. Yum.

- Vietnam: Going to bus up to Ko Samui, boat up to Bangkok, bus over to Cambodia, cab through Cambodia, and hopefully end up in Ho Chi Minh City. From there we'll play by ear and again, hopefully end up in Hanoi where we'll take a flight back down to our motherland. Tentatively, hopefully.

- Underpaid job tomorrow. Do not feel like going. No choice. Fuck.

*edit:

30 minutes after I've popped the 2 pills, I still feel no effect. Possible that I'm invulnerable to laxatives.

Vietnam

2006-04-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

Vietnam trip in May.

Interested parties may apply. 2 weeks duration.

Current participants are:

1) Me
2) Chris Ang
3) Dowell

Applications may be turned down due to the fact that nobody loves you. :)

>.<

2006-04-15T05:06:00.000+08:00

Laptop crashed, lost all pictures taken in Cambodia. Damn wasted. Never mind, go Vietnam, take somemore restock.

First time photographing a model. Sibei cannot make it.

Never mind, post only.

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Sibei CMI.

My arse is better than yours.

2006-04-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

Public healthcare my arse. Subsidised medical fees my arse. I thought going to a polyclinic would only cost $6.50 but ended up costing me 15 bucks and 3 hours of my time.

Efficient healthcare my arse.

The question remains: WTF DO PEOPLE STILL GO TO POLY CLINICS?!?!

Going private mean an $18 bill, a more sympathetic doctor, better treatment, less waiting time, and it's only a 3 dollar difference. WTF WTF WTF.

I got lied to. GAH.

Singapore gahmen my arse.

Doom.

2006-04-07T05:40:00.000+08:00

9th June 2006, Special Operations Tactics Centre, Pasir Ris Camp.

This spells the end of my carefree youth.

Sibei sian.

Commando-oh-oh. Here I go-oh-oh.

FUCK LA.

State of Zen

2006-03-30T04:33:00.000+08:00

Break my bones and make me bleed coz there ain't any other way to make me feel alive.

I'm fuckin' blanked.

Angwee ah!

2006-03-29T04:04:00.000+08:00

I was reading through my old blog and I'm amazed at how naive and optimistic (+ immature, foolish, and lovesick ) I was just a mere 3 years ago.

I wonder if I were to read through the archives of this blog in another 3 years, would I feel the same way?

I do miss feeling optimistic, I do miss feeling love (this feeling is absolutely foreign to me now), and I definitely miss being naive and stupid. Just that stupid impulse to do well in school, get my licenses, and other such idealistic stuff.

Yeah big fucking deal. Now that I've got my academic wishes fulfilled (graduating GPA of 3.56), got both class 3 and class 2b licenses, got 'sort of' regular jobs coming in, where the fuck does that leave me?

I've wasted the best years of my life doing this shit when others were having fun and enjoying the best years of THEIR life. I only regret that I didn't cherish the time spent in secondary school and poly. Wasted so much fucking time on prepping for the future.

Don't even fucking mention the band. Yes it's still a sore point with me and it will always be a sore point.

I wish I could say this with more emphasis but since I can't,

fuck it.

Cool.

2006-03-29T03:50:00.000+08:00

I know He's there, I just know.

Yeah, we're cool like that.

stop.

2006-03-29T03:05:00.000+08:00

This is where everything stops.

Stop.

Junkie love

2006-03-27T01:47:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Corrine Bailey Rae - Put your records on

I have totally, absolutely, unbelievably, junked myself out. Been working like fucking crazy these past few days. 15 hours, 18 hours, 11 hours, 13 hours. Fucking fuck, I'm worn out like an old tyre.

Added to that, I've been smoking like a chimney, guzzling chocolates like mad (think Augustus Gloop , eating whole bags of chips and drinking fuckloads of high sugar level drinks, while on set. I feel like... urgh.

I think Corrine Bailey Rae's Put your records on is really good. I'm reminded of The Format when I hear that track. Shite, so much commerical radio these past few days and I think only one track is good.

Oh and maybe Madonna's new track. Hahaha.

Never though I'll say that, ever.

Priceless.

2006-03-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Secret Garden - Adagio

I was sifting through the inbox of my school-given email account recently and I came across this gem. It was titled "Blogging - A Great Experience!"

No shit roflmao. Cheggit:

***

Guide to a Great Blogging Experience

For a great and meaningful blogging experience, it is good for you to be aware of some key issues relating to online interaction and idea exchange.

This guide serves as a roadmap for constructive, respectful, and productive dialogue between NP student bloggers and others.

Be mindful of what you discuss on blogs and other forms of online discourse because what you write will remain public for a long time, so be aware of the need to protect your own privacy.

If you publish a blog or post to a blog with subjects associated with NP, do make it clear that you are speaking in your personal capacity and not on behalf of NP. Use a disclaimer such as this: "The views on this site are my own and do not necessarily represent the views of my school.”

You’ll have to refrain from discussing or disclosing confidential and proprietary information of any organization (including the Polytechnic) with any other person or organisation on any blog.

Also remember that you should not use the Polytechnic or any staff’s name to endorse or promote any product, opinion or cause.

Be respectful to the Polytechnic, your lecturers/tutors and fellow schoolmates. Do not use ethnic slurs, personal insults, obscenities, etc. Show proper consideration for others' privacy and topics or content that may be considered sensitive, objectionable or inflammatory -- such as race and religion.

Respect copyright, fair comment and financial disclosure laws.

Whenever you are in doubt of any blogging issues, feel free to approach any of your lecturers.
It’s always better to be sure than sorry.

***

Oh sure doesn't seem like the school's trying to *cough*ineffectively*cough* brainwash us. Hmmm.

What fools. Just another reason why I really dislike people over the age of 40. Unless they're my mom and dad. And certain other cool people. Like uhm, whoever.

And of course, as usual, the views on this site are my own and do not necessarily represent the views of my school.

Ahem. ;)

Mannequin lookout

2006-03-21T05:04:00.000+08:00

Mannequins wanted. Cracked and spoilt ones wanted. Not cracked and spoilt, not missing legs and arms, don't want.

But if you have those perfect ones, and is willing to have arms, hair, legs, and face smashed, you're welcome to lend it to me.

It's for a personal project. THANK YOU.

Of Imogen Heap and Mutemath

2006-03-20T18:08:00.000+08:00

The fucking mosaic people refuse to pay me because of one stupid incident which they blew up themselves and therefore kena fuck by the directors of Esplanade. Fucking fucking fuck.

Gah.

Add on top of it all, I keep on forgetting to lock my gate when I enter the house. Zzzz.

And after so long, I still haven't gotten sick of Mutemath's stuff. So bloody amazing. Come to think of it, Frou Frou's Imogen Heap's solo album is quite good. There's one track in which she mixed her voice acapella style with midi.

Phwoarrrrr. Nice.

Tai Yang

2006-03-19T05:16:00.000+08:00

Oh and The Suns is gonna play 7.30pm on Sunday (which is later on) at the Esplanade and I'm still contemplating whether to go because I don't wanna see the production people, ever.

But then again it's the prodigal sons of our motherland!

Such a dilemma.

Bah.

Fuggin fuggin fug.

2006-03-19T05:05:00.000+08:00

Life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon life will get better soon....

but yet I fail to see the reason why it should.

ONE DAY I WILL EARN 15K/MONTH I SWEAR IT.

But not while I'm sitting on my ass on the sofa at 5.15am getting ready to watch Futurama with a big bag of Lay's sour cream chips and a glass of water beside me. I do it to destress, but I don't accomplish anything else other than destressing and I definitely can't work towards that fuckin 15k pay cheque while doing it but yet doing it is a necessity I have to do because I'm so sick and tired of work that I'm sick and tired of everything else and because of me being sick and tired of that I risk repeating myself and also typing sentences without proper punctuation or grammar.

I hate vicious cycles. Such a chore.

Fleerance.

2006-03-13T03:53:00.000+08:00

The fucked up thing about freelancing is that you don't get paid till like a few months later. I've got about 1k that's yet to be paid to me and I'm currently in debt to a tune of four to five hundred bucks.

Worst thing is, I'm working like mad everyday but still got no money. Really dunno to laugh or to cry.

But overall, quite happy with life. I feel quite contented.

But there's ALWAYS something missing everytime and this time's no different. Sigh.

I smell dead people.

2006-03-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

Btw I cut my hair (although everyone I know couldn't spot the difference. HOW CAN IT BE WHEN I CUT MY PONYTAIL OFF nnb cheebye).

And I got to get a pair of new shoes. My old pair smells like dead bodies coz of work. Gah.

Post Grad

2006-03-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

I think I like post-grad life. Just finished a pro-bono shoot and had a couple of jobs come out of that, not to mention many contacts as well as countless friendships established.

Can anyone say, WRAP PARTY?!!?

Wahahahahahaha.

The only fucked up bit is my bike. Keeps leaking engine oil and have spent quite a bit trying to repair that fucking thing. Fuck fuck fucking hell.

Heh.

2006-03-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

I'm broke, tired, and confused.

But I feel good coz pre-ns life's not looking too bad.

Finally, be able to hang out on saturday after about a few fucking months of work. IT'S FINALLY OVER.

Guess I'm still in shock hur.

Le Femme Nikita

2006-03-01T02:05:00.000+08:00

Sexy, slim, wild, dangerous, fuck yeah. I'm in love.

Introducing... Le Femme Nikita! Maybe Nikita for short.

Down part is that I stumbled into the hidden costs trap which is gonna set me back maybe 300 bucks. Sigh.

Anyway, I finally realised what my greatest pet peeve is. Nope, not stupid people though stupidity does rank high in my shitlist.

It's people who do half-assed jobs of stuff. Kena like mad since the start of the year and just by dealing with this bike, kena another one. Wah lan eh sibei dulan one. But fuck it, I'm getting sidetracked.

I'm a happy boy for now. :D

Le Femme Nikita.

GBUY!

2006-02-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

How can one not love google?

Introducing, GBUY!

I'm still sick. Damn gbuy.

I've got friends to make you feel excluded. HAH.

2006-02-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

auralorgasm:: Mae - Futuro (live)

I can't help not listening. Was surfing Mervyn's blog and it was playing and it sounds oh so soothing to the ears.

I remember reading somewhere this particular sentence that has been resounding in my head for the past few years: When I grow up, I want to be happy.

I think it was Amelia. Or was it Jesse? Can't fucking remember. But anyway, I miss you Amah, but I think it's just one of those friends go overseas to study miss miss kinda thing. Never really spoke to you after Cambodia so you have no reason to believe I'm being sincere but well, I am.

Some fuckers are blasting their karaoke set from their tentage from the neighbouring HDB blocks and their song cannot be more apt to describe how exactly I'm feeling.

Which song is that? It's that fucking peng you song. The one that goes like 'peng you yi sheng yi qi zou' by that fella whose name I forgot. I've been working for 3 weeks straight and I've had absolutely no hang out time with friends. Maybe Chris but then again that's not counted coz I see him in school almost everyday and besides, too much of him is bad for my mental health.

AND I'VE JUST GOTTEN SICK AGAIN.

Whine whine whine. Fuck yeah. I'm feeling pissed at the world.

:(

2006-02-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

Up and down and up and down.

Life's like shit.